retardation..

Mentally and emotionally unstable. Easily annoyed and irritated. Need lots of DOTA to calm me down.

My definition of Friendship

It's been approximately 2 weeks after my birthday. I wasn't actually hoping for any surprise party or any kind of celebration but more to who remember it and who didn't. And I was also kind of hoping that they would do something "special" for me on that day (not that I actually want gifts or anything, there are a lot of ways to make someone feel special on their birthday). It is very important to me that my friends (especially CLOSE FRIENDS) and family members to remember the date because it reflects how much they care and appreciate me. But of course some people are too busy with whatever they are doing so it really is okay if they didn't remember it (eventhought I'll get upset, but I'll get over it soon). Frankly, a lot of my friends greeted me on that day. I was extremely happy. Thanks to everyone who send me text messages or called me to wish my birthday, which include all of my family members. And thanks to Afif for being one of the earliest to greet me (he called me at 12am that night, that really means a lot to me). And also Ridzuan Mohsin for sending me messages early that morning (I thought you have forgotten about my birthday, but you didn't!). Thanks to Izul for treating me Pad Thai at Thai Mascot and Azri for dinner at Oporto. And to Wan Zul for calling me that night. Honestly, you guys makes me feel appreciated as a friend. Thanks to Jia Ji, Jiha, Wani, Falihin and Juan for sending me comments on the friendster. We are so far apart, but you guys have never failed to make me feel so fortunate having all of you in my life (and that also goes to Ridzuan Mohsin and Afif). Thanks to Faiq for buying meat lover box for lunch and to Acap for buying me choc-tea-milk-whatever-drink (eventhough everyone says it taste weird, but I like it a lot). I am so grateful to Allah for them.

My easter break....

Today is Friday...2 more days to go before the classes starts for the next half of the semester. This Easter's break is seemingly worthless as I haven't done much the things i thought i would do. The whole holiday was filled with endless day dreaming and waiting for what lies ahead for me tomorrow. It's been hell lot of waiting for stuff that I really wanted to do. I wanted to go out and meet my friends and have a great time hanging out with people that I love and care the most. But the whole time seems to be just a total waste....being mostly at my messy apartment has gotten me pretty upset because everyone's busy with their own stuff. Fortunately, thanks to the almighty Allah for clearing up this whole disastrous feelings of loneliness and misery, I actually found what makes me happy....Dota :) After several months of remaining dormant, I decided that I should play it again just to kill the boredom. I knew that playing too much Dota will put my priority of studying down at the bottom but what the heck. It's rather interesting to play with someone else instead of feuding with the computer, so I decided to ask nik if he doesn't mind playing with me. And yes he always got time for me and i was extremely happy that even aloy n syed would want to join the team. So thursday night was filled with the excitement of battling between 2 teams. We switched partners for 3 games that night and I was very glad that I got myself occupied again. That was the day and the only day I played dota for this break. Well, I have to get my priority straight, that is to study and do well for this semester. And I have always wanted to thank Afif for always being there for me. And to my lovely housemates, I hope we all can get the best out of this holiday and ofcourse obtain a very good results for this semester. Ok that's it for this short chapter of my holiday. Will update soon when I got something to say to the world :)